I've been thinking a lot since the election night. I remember my 10 year son and I watching the results on the computer while in bed. He would let me know what states went to Hilary or Donald. I had to pick up my oldest from work and I would get text messages letting me know what was going on. Bubba stayed up til 11pm before crashing. He hoped when he woke up there would be the first female president.
As we all know, that didn't happen. That night I was watching and crying. I'm an empath, whether you believe in that shit or not, I was devastated and feeling so much sadness from our country. I work at the Crisis Text Line, for those who don't know. It's a 24/7 crisis support via text messaging. It's amazing. We got a huge spike in our texters that night and the next few days. We say so many people scared of what is next for them. Scared of what will happen to their families, to themselves, to their friends. Honestly, I was scared for them too. I didn't have the answers, I only had that ear to listen and validate that this is all so fucked up.
The next morning, Bubba wakes up. He comes to me and says, I have a bad feeling in my gut that Trump won Mom. I confirm his feelings. Trump is the president. As he was getting ready for the day he came to me and said; Mom, I have a feeling there are going to be a lot of sad and happy people today because of the results. I think the best thing I can do is smile more today, be an ear for those who may be afraid, and just be there.
How the hell did I get so lucky to have amazingly compassionate kids. I believe it's learned behavior, and I'm proud of that.
I felt so sad for the next week and beyond, hearing all the stories, feeling all the feelings. I know it's cliche and I don't care but Trump is not my president. I will not support his hateful mission. My kids and I will continue to fight for those who don't have a voice. It's my goal, passion and commitment to fight for the users. The United States is better than Trump.
Yes, this is a serious post. Something I have been wanting to put down in paper for a long time now. I have moments of clarity and focus. This was one of those times. I can't be silly when talking about this.
This next generation of kids will change the world, and I know for a fact that my two boys will be in the front lines!