I've been binge listening to the song "This is Me" from the soundtrack The Greatest Showman and it really sinks in.
It's taken me a long time to not give a shit about what others think. I mean I care, to a certain degree, but I'm not going to change who I am. This is me.
The lyrics resonate with me so much because I am just a whole new person now. Looking back at who I was...who I was trying to be and trying to please. It's a learning moment of course. I don't want to change a thing because of all that has happened, it's made me the Jen I am today. This is me.
In the past, I would basically morph into whatever group I hung out with at the time. If I was with athletes I was a jock, if I was with skateboarders, I became a skater betty and if I was at a punk rock show, you know damn well I was in the pit moshing away. But all of those things WERE me, I didn't have to pick one or the other, again a lesson I have learned in my wise years. This is me.
As I am typing here with my 'Clear this Shit out!' candle I have burning, and listening to the song, my mind just is...happy. The song is an anthem for those who don't fit into a perfect mold of what society thinks. Bring out the weird, the shy, the awkward and the proud! This is me. (well maybe not the 'shy' part)
I'm just here to show you that we can be many different things at once. Let's break those 'molds'. My mold runneth over. This is me.
So, after reading this, I hope you find some reflections in yourself and share with the world because no one can knock us down. Be you, it's the only you I want to see. I'm being me, because I don't know how to be anyone else.
This. Is. Me.